unemployment

the cold air clings comfortably
and i dive deeper into blankets,
currently content with
the lulling hums of
my towels on spin cycle
and dishes rinsing rhythmically
in my very own kitchen.
five minutes pass quickly
watching the icy rain
slide silently down my
big picture window
before the guilt hits hard,
a stormy wave of anxiety
attacks my nerves
and i jump up,
remembering the hundreds of things
i should be doing
like reorganizing the closets
or resweeping the floors
or deciding on tommorrows's dinner,
but the new me takes over
and my breathing slows
and i curl back into the couch,
because 'life should be enjoyable,'
i hastily tell myself.
and there are scrubs reruns
left to be seen.

there's only two things I do well, sweetheart, and skating's the other one

so 2007. wow. so many firsts..

got married
lived with a dude
killed a raccoon with a gun
backpacked with just vail
killed a snake with a rock
hitchhiked
managed a coffee shop
baked professionally
skiied vail
seen the rockies
attended a dulaney family fourth of july picnic
fell in love with the west
bought a washer and dryer
woke up elsewhere christmas morning
IKEA
realized i like Bob Dylan..

it was a good year. hard at times but i wouldn't change a second. nearly every weekend i was in a different town, and i like it that way. i feel so blessed to have so many friends in so many places and a husband who loves me just the way i am right here by my side. i wouldn't trade my life for the world.